So this evening as I type this I feel overwhelmingly flat, today I got some news that wasn’t unexpected, in fact in the long run will probably be a positive step forward for me in dealing with my pain and everyday life so why do I feel so flat and empty?!? I will go into greater detail over the coming blogs as to the news and the impact it is having on me but for now I don’t feel ready. I expected to have a huge sense of relief and almost joy and after an initial few minutes of relief I have spent the rest of the day feeling numb, empty and just hmmph. I know this doesn’t make much sense to you reading it but I needed to just get it off my chest. So there you go deflated and in desperate hunt of a pump!