Life is really crazy at the moment, this week is flying by and I just cannot keep up with all the achievements and positives. It is a bizarre statement because as I sit here, mind whirling and pain spiking I am struggling to make sense of it all.
When I reflect back on the year the flat lows back in February when I heard I was losing the one decently accessible playing park and field and the tears I shed with my LG, to where I am today and the things I have achieved it all seems surreal. It doesn’t seem from those dark gloomy days and feelings of hopelessness to the creation of Wymondham Access Group and this week meeting Mark Harrison the CEO of Equal Lives and having him describe me as dynamic, inspirational and a credit to the community is mind blowing. I lost, for many years, all self esteem, I became riddled with self doubt and a lack of self worth. I am very good at acting but occasionally the veil slips the vulnerability slips through.
As I reflect on the year so far it seems like I have already ran a marathon, and I also have another to run over the next couple of months. I promise to reveal more next Thursday but until now my lips are sealed. All will become apparent! I will be reluctantly blogging off for a period as I need to stay healthy (the irony of that phrase, but healthy for me) and focussed on a project so for a month I will go. Please readers stay with me though as I will be back, and I will no doubt share some updates of the project which will explain my absence.
Rambling, I get back to my positives firstly I had a lovely afternoon looking after my niece and spending some time with my younger brother and his family. I am blessed with people around me and never see one another as often as I wish with all my family and friends but life gets in the way, I wish it didn’t but it does.
I desperately need to write some more blogs and not necessarily these everyday, as I feel you only get a snap shot of my day as opposed to the full me.
Maybe two years was long enough, maybe I should do weekly positives and daily mood blogs #selfdoubtcreepingin